Raising $18,700 in six months is incredibly frustrating to me. Not that I believe it can't be done. Nothing can limit my God's provision. But I have to accept that I cannot do it on my own (unless I win the lottery!)

Psalm 50:10
For all the animals of the forest are mine, and I own the cattle on a thousand hills.

Matthew 7:7-8
He promises, “Ask and it shall be given you; seek and you shall find; knock and it shall be opened to you. For every one that asks receives; and he that seeks finds; and to him that knocks it shall be opened.”

God, why didn't you give me a heads up about this calling like a year or two in advance so I could be better prepared? Seriously? Why you gotta challenge me like this? I don't like asking people for money. 

Growing up, if I wanted something, I made it happen. I got a job and earned enough money to get it. My very first job was at a local movie theater in my home town. The only reason I got a job in the first place was so I could earn money to go on my very first missions trip to El Salvador! 

However, God has called me to dream beyond my means. That requires stepping out in faith AND trusting Him!

I have always had a big heart for missions. Whenever missionaries came to our church to preach, I always looked forward to it. These people to me were giants of the faith to me! They left their family, their homes, everything they knew behind in pursuit of a people that were not their own. 

I wanted to live recklessly like that for Christ.

While I am preparing and doing all he practical things like living frugally, working jobs, writing letters, blogging, planning fundraising dinners, and researching different opportunities to raise support, I know that God will bring the right people along to sow into this ministry.

2 Corinthians 5:7
For we live by faith, not by sight.

 I don't have all the answers, but I know that God sees the bigger picture. He called me to this so he won't let me down now. He hasn't called me to do this journey alone and I hope that you will keep me in your thoughts and prayers.

-Heidi